what i need from you tonight my love.

god.. where does the time go?

how did we go from being the worlds most loving couple… to…

…this?

I do love you babe. to the moon and back.

I also love our kids. our home. our adventures. the life we have created. 

the life we are creating. 

the ‘we’ moments are now regularly plus one, two, three babies? And perhaps a neighborhood kid or two?

its..

work. school. daycare. whats for dinner. work. clean. tubby time. bedtime. 

followed by: PURE EXHAUSTION. 

there is nothing easy about this phase my love.

but that’s what it is, a phase. 

A phase which will pass. 

and from what every parent on the other side says, it will go far too fast. 

so tonight… 

when we are the in the middle of it. 

the downright ugly. 

in the middle of the loud. the chaos. the yelling. the knee scrapes. the I want a lollipop. I want Goldfish. I need a drink. NO- I DIDN’T WANT THAT JUICE- THIS ONE.

when we are knee deep. 

feeling like the water is rising around us. 

when we are counting down the minutes until the clock reads eight. 

look at me. look me in the eyes. 

see my love for you. feel it. drink it in. soak it up. let it fill your soul. 

the way it did before ALL OF THIS.

Before the kids. the house. the business. the family. the pandemic. the dishes. the laundry. the spills. the dirt. the endless to do’s. 

ALL OF IT.

what I need from you tonight my love…

is to feel my love for you. 

then. 

now. 

tomorrow. 

10 years from now. 

as our home is filled with noise, chaos, excitement, tension. 

…and as the walls grow quiet and calm.

remember the way I looked at you when we first met. 

remember the excitement I felt every time you took my hand in yours. 

remember our first kiss. 

remember dreaming of the life we had yet to build. 

remember that I am absolutely OVER THE MOON for you. 

What I need from you tonight…

is just you.

all of you. 

forever. 

xoxoxox

-second mom club